You’re a heathen if you don’t go to church

Sundays used to be my favorite day of the week. It was my only day off. It was the day I would get up, go to church, do my meal prep for the week, watch DVDs and rest. This was my ritual. Every Sunday, my roommate and I had a tradition that I would make a cake. Sundays were my day of rest that prepared me for my busy week.

But now Sundays are different.

I find myself unable to go to church due to health.

I grew up evangelical. Going to church was what you did every time the doors were open. Even though I’ve been home-bound a year now, it still feels very strange to me that I am not able to attend services.

Satan likes to fill my head with things like, “You’re a heathen if you don’t go to church”  and “You should be ashamed of yourself, you call yourself a Christian but don’t even attend services.”

I typically watch my church services online. I stream my home church’s live feed.

This morning, I was particularly discouraged. I am coming off of one of my steroid medications and am in increased pain. I am still heavily struggling to adjust my levels since my cortisol STIM test earlier this week. I wanted to go to church, but it didn’t happen. So as usual, I turned on the live stream.

The pastor’s message- “How to go to church.”

Wow, God you constantly show me that you are ALIVE and you HEAR my thoughts and prayers.

The preacher talked about how going to church is more than just getting dressed and driving to the sanctuary.

Truly going to church is: prayer, worship and listening to the word of God.

Some people that physically are in church, are not truly going to church. They do this out of habit,obligation or force of a spouse/family member/etc.

Some people that are not able to physically attend church, still go to church.

Spirituality is NOT the act of going to a building three times a week, it is our thoughts, actions and character.

We are to worship our Creator. His Holy attributes, powerful will and mercy towards us needs to be praised.

We are to thank our Savior for His grace. Because of Him, our sins are forgiven and we will live in eternal bliss without pain or suffering.

We are to cleanse our hearts and minds of all worldly, sinful and hateful things.

We are to condition our character with the Word of GOD.

We are to pray to our heavenly Father about ALL THINGS…….Our worries, our pain, our joy, our desires, our family members, our friends…..EVERYTHING.

This is what church is for….

All of these things are what going to church is about.

I may not GO to church, But I still “church.”

I suppose I’ll start thinking of church as a verb instead of a noun.

I will BE the church, even if I can’t attend right now.

Ephesians 5:27 (KJV)

27 That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.




2 thoughts on “You’re a heathen if you don’t go to church

  1. Mirella October 26, 2017 / 6:47 pm

    I know I’m a little late reading this, but I so needed it. I haven’t been able to go to church for health reasons since March this year, and I *hate* it. Thank you.


    • Winslow E. Dixon October 26, 2017 / 11:29 pm

      Thank you for reading. I hope you are able to return to church soon. Wishing you healing & hope ❤


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