A Daunting Date

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I have a daunting date ahead of me-

APRIL 7th, 2017

This is the date I am having my cortisol test done.

Why is this test so daunting? Because it could kill me, literally.

With Addison’s disease, my adrenals have completely failed. They do not secrete the life sustaining chemical cortisol. (Oh my how I’ve grown to hate that word)

In order to be placed on the pump, I have to have my natural blood cortisol levels checked.

I will have to be off of the oral cortisol pills for an accurate reading.

The morning of my test, I will have an emergency shot of Solu-Cortef with me in the event I go into adrenal crisis from lack of cortisol.

The first time I attempted this test, I ended up in the hospital.

This is the third time I’m having to do this awful thing…..

HOPEFULLY THE LAST!

I ask that you all pray for me April 7th. Pray that my body handles the test. Pray that it enables the doctor to have the information he needs to place me on the cortisol pump. Pray that I can afford this treatment.

I dreamed last night that I was driving again. It is amazing the things I took for granted. Simple things like driving, walking around walmart and showering.

Oh God,  thank you for teaching me to be thankful for all things.

You see, that’s how I go on in this life now. I may have lost my independence, my job, my schooling, my health, my physical strength and my money- but I did not lose many important things in life. I have to focus on the little things instead of the pain and limitations.

I am so overwhelmingly blessed with the people in my life that love and support me.

Thank you to everyone who has donated to the cortisol pump fund. I am selfishly praying as much as I can that that treatment will be a possibility for me. The hope of living again just re-kindles my spirit.  Below is the link. Again, thank you so much those who have supported me.OverComing Addisons- GoFundMe

 

I think the Apostle Paul said it best regarding suffering in this life. Sometimes I wonder if I’m strong enough to walk this road for the rest of my life. When my pain peaks, when I can’t breathe and I feel out of control, I realize that I am not strong at all. It is truly God that carries me through those terrifying moments.

Philippians 4

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.

10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity.

11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.

12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

14 Notwithstanding ye have well done, that ye did communicate with my affliction.

 

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